Saturday, 5 November 2016

Motherhood is not all beautiful

It is ugly. It is feeling on top of the world one day and down at rock bottom another. It is crying so hard in the difficult moments that your face is puffy and red and you think you might never stop.

It is scary. It is losing control. It is feeling anxious and nervous and terrified at that loss of control and your simultaneous need for it. It is lying awake at night with your heart racing and a nauseous feeling in your stomach, anticipating being woken up yet again.

It is vulnerability. It is having your heart opened to so much love that you can't bear to think of losing it or using it wrong. It is sobbing into a cup of tea at 5am because you feel hopeless and you wonder when this phase will end. It is feeling guilty for being angry and for wanting a moment for you. It is the guilt of neglecting everything else in your life a little bit more.

Motherhood is not always beautiful. But it is extraordinary. It is knowing unconditional love. It is being a role model. It is being reminded, in the moments of hopelessness and ugliness that it's also pretty amazing. It is first steps, first words, first kisses. It is a miracle. Sometimes miracles are messy. But they're miraculous all the same.

Motherhood is not beautiful in the traditional sense. But there is beauty in ugliness. In fear. In vulnerability.

And there is beauty in miracles.


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10 comments:

  1. What a beautifully written post. You are so right. It is all of those things and so much more too. I hope you're ok. Thanks for joining us at the #bigpinklink

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  2. You're so right---but that's what makes it beautiful, too....
    jodie
    www.jtouchofstyle.com
    #FabFridayPost

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  3. Yep it is the grandest of shit shows most days!
    #fabfriday

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  4. So very true, and beautifully said x
    #FabFridayPost

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  5. So true. Motherhood isn't all unicorns and rainbows. Sometimes it's totally and utterly crap. Hope you're okay and am sending hugs and tea

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  6. Ahh this is so beautiful, and you are so right. Motherhood is tough! #fabfridaypost

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  7. beautifully written, I love this! So very true and accurate x #FabFridayPost

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  8. What a beautiful post Becky. I know what you mean. & also from time to time don't forget to pat yourself well done too. You are doing a great job mama! xxx #FabfridayPost

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